the "Eve" in me

so i was reading the book called " Twelve Extraordinary Women" by John MacArthur and it really struck me.

Basically this book explores the lives of twelve "extraordinary" women from the bible, tells why they were so special to Christ and explains how this can be applied to today's standards.

so far i've only read the intro and a couple pages about Eve, the Mother of all living" (Gen 3:20). I have learned alot about Eve and her equality and complimentary status to Adam and also living in her subordinate position as well.

Today's gender and relational roles are extremely distorted. The reason women are so stressed as head of household is because they are working outside of God's designed positiion for them. We were not created to be to be protectors, leaders or sole providers. Instead God made us to be helpers, nurturers, mothers, and comforters.


Sadly these roles in today's world have been equated with weekness as a result of abused leadership by men and lack of trust in women for God to provide whom he has created for each of us. We look to our looks, jobs, cars, money and men to provide all these things instead of trusting the One who made it all in the first place.

Reading this i have learned the source of some of my desires to help, be needed and the longing for children and take care of others. That's how God made me!!! I am walking in my true feminine nature.

Where i lack is the trust in God to provide and satisfy those longings and needs. This book has been a true wake up call and i'm only on page 8!!

Thank you God for the revelation :) Helps me keeping going and He will help you too.

Still standing

The Lord has really been moving in my life lately. Currently we are working on developing my trust and patience. Man am i learning that i am one impatient person!!! Whooo and stubborn too. Anyway, everyday day ( well i strive for everyday) I read Romans chapter 7 one verse at a time. I started this at the beginning of July, fell off and have been getting back up through out the month. Currently i am on verse 17 which states:

"so I am not the doing wrong, it is the sin living within me that does it"

Now this really made me think, this is not me being impatient or pushy, but rather as i learned earlier in the chapter, the sinful nature dwelling inside of me. Honestly, when i first let this idea roll through my head, it sounded like an excuse. i mean come on now, your telling me some dark evil spirit gets inside my heart and controls my thoughts, motives,actions, and everything else? HA!!! but as i kept thinking there is also something inside of me that makes me feel bad for this actions, makes me stop and think before i send that suggestive text... NOW whats that all about? Just like there is something that convicts me for these actions there is another "something" in me that condones (spelling?) these actions.... Hmmmm
now that could be interesting and now this idea of a sinful nature doesn't sound so crazy.

Ok so i know it's not me and i've also learned because think what i am doing is wrong i agree that God's way is good and good FOR me... ok........ soooooo now what??

This is where God chimes in, he says : There is nothing you can do except give it to me and TRUST ME to fill you with my SPIRIT. SHOW ME THAT YOU LOVE ME.

hmmmmm... so there is nothing to do except... accept that i can't do anything without him. I'm broken and need help. Accept that im not perfect, there are ungodly things inside me and the ONLY "something" that can clense me is Him. so next i vented on paper naturally lol. WHOOOOOO that felt amazing i just let out all the things i feel and what scares me most and now you know we are on a journey to replenish and renew me.... it was wonderful honestly. Who knew such healing could come from such pain??? I Didn't. I am on my way some where... really, and i want to take you with me. IT'S SOOOO WORTH IT.

Still standing

it's not about me

so i was blog browsing today and i came across one that really touched me with a very valid point. Most of our sites whether it be twitter, facebook, blogs or myspace (still using that?)are created to glorify ourselves and we forget about God and all his glory. We forget about all the wonderful things he does for us on a daily basis, like waking us up, making us healthy, and giving us our right minds. So thanks to my sister who writes the blog whats on my heart, i have been inspired to rededicated my blog to him and thoughts about him. No random boys, or girls i think are prettier than me, or some celebrity i wish i was, no its just me and him. This is our hangout. I am also going to pray about a new name... is blah blah rude??? IDK but i feel a blessing is on the way, the Lord indeed is taking his people somewhere, He is really shifting things around as you can tell lol. But my God is making some changes, and created room in his kingdom and i want to make sure i don't miss my calling and i make my reservation for the hottest club there is... HEAVEN :)

open or closed? ( i like my lids closed)

hey friends ( or soon to be :)

so i have this a complication... ok in my bathroom we have this fancy toothbrush holder, look people this is no ordinary holder. You know how you have the plastic travel kind or the kind that stick to the wall??? YEA NOT LIKE THAT AT ALL!!! this holder not only sticks to the wall, but has a snazzy ( yea snazzy) lid that perserves the brissels ( spell check?? ) and it firmly grips the toothbrush by the neck and secures it. I mean this thing is the real deal, but the problem occurs with the lid. Naturally i thought i was supposed to be closed, because is that not the purpose of a lid to have the option of closing?? If it were meant to be open there would be no lid.... right??? But everytime i go into the bathroom it's always open... like ALWAYS.... Now at first i thought it was just CERTAIN people in my family ( for the sake of my Christianity they will remain nameless)being forgetful, hey no harm no foul there... happens to the best of us, but then i did the test ( shut it on purpose if that's possible?) and i went back in directly after and it was open. Now folks am i victim of stubborness, or do i have a person who likes their lids left open? I don't know... I will let you know definately