Good evening all,
Sorry about the delay, it has been about 5.5 days since my last entry and honestly it has been a roller coaster and somewhat disappointing. Well to start things off, I have been avoiding the gym, no regular activity since last week. Some of my absence ( from the gym) was due to the fact that I was coming down with a something, just a cold thankfully. But the rest was due to laziness and sneaky depression ugh!! But as I was talking to my sister and I was telling of my feelings, and it's almost like there is person inside of me hiding behind what I felt I "should" be. All the things I like I am afraid of, so maybe that is why God is not telling me what my gifts are. I already know them but they are hidden in fear. Then it is also fear that births laziness and conplacence. I avoid the very gifts I was given and maybe God feels like I have rejected him and those gifts. Ugh there is so much to write I just feel overwhelmed. To sum it all up, Lord Reveal what is already in me. What exactly did you give me to use for your kingdom? and if it will help why did i quit so many things as a child. So that's why my prayers about spiritual gifts were not getting through!!! because i was praying for what they are or rather something else rather than focusing on what I already have. Wow he just answered my prayer about getting to know myself. I prayed for a starting place,and I feel like i need to start in the areas that scare me the most, writing and singing. He said start by doing what you already like to do, your discernment will kick in if it something that is off. What about the writing though, honestly for my counseling session I have felt compelled to write down my feelings throughout the week, because it will better keep track of what I have been doing. But honestly, Alot of the times I just don't feel like writing, and would it be lame if all I did for the day was write? At the end of the day it is your choice.
until next time happy reading
Aleta
Monday, June 20, 2011
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Corinthians 11 : head covering and more dinner!!
Good evening all
Well I read another chapter of corinthians, honestly I can totally excited for chapter 12 because I will finally get to the spiritual gifts!!!! I have been wanting to have a official title to my gift for the longest time!! So much has happened since the last time I wrote in my blog. My sister ( spiritual) had a wonderful conversation last night, so many things came to light about my relationship with a certain someone, ( hopefully one day I can provide his name and picture), and just God's potential purpose well one of them, for my light. I am too excited for what is to come. I am still on the hunt for job #2 but I feel I am getting closer, I just have to keep trying.
Now to chapter 11.
Well it was very interesting, the first portion dicussed the relationship between man, woman and God. God is ( or should be) the head of a man and a man is ( should be) the head of his wife. This calls for a word that has been used out of context for a long time and that is submission. I don't know about you but this is a difficult word for me, especially when you look at it from the world's perspective. Usually it is associate with low class, some for of abuse, little to know rights,it's just bad. As a believer not only do i have to submit to Christ but to my husband also... GREAT!!! Then I get really confused because Paul says all this stuff about how a in worship a woman must keep her head covered and never cut her hair because it is her pride and joy ( long hair that is). Well personally I have already broke that rule ( a few times) plus I really don't have long hair anyway. So once again I am in a place where I am confused how to apply this concept to modern day activities and principles. I understand the submission portion I have trust in my husband that he is lead by Christ, but FIRST before I come in to contact with my Husband I have to learn how to trust Christ, how can i trust the creation with out first trusting it's creator?? All this self sacrifice is rough because I am in a place where i am hoping to discover myself and in order to do that have to ignore myself? It makes since on paper but as an application it's still throws me for a loop from time to time. So the head covering for me and non head covering for men, is still fuzzy but I understand submitting. CHECK..
NEXT dinner...
the next passage talked about the Lord's supper and I think it's the portion my pastor reads before we take communion. Paul takes about waiting for others to arrive before you start eating, it's he is telling them to pray before they eat their food, maybe? Or maybe this is instructions communion, just during his time it was called the Lord's supper. He also talks about examining yourself before having the supper, I take this to mean having a clear conscious and maybe as for forgiveness before participating. Yea I was not really focused on this chapter this evening but I kind of feel the spirit telling me that this portion was just instructions for customs of that time period and I should not read too deep into it. OK
As I said before I am really excited for next chapter, I am thinking I should pray and fast and read it like ten times before I actually blog about it. I really believe that God will formally name and Identify my gifts through someone this week. The ones that I am curious about are , I have miniture visions about certain things, discernment in the form of physical sensations and emotional connections with people, and sometimes I feel as though I am understand people speaking in tongues. I would love confirmation on these especially the visions because I would like to know if that is related to prophecy, I don't know. So many things. I can't wait, the only other time I get this excited is when I go see my special someone
k signing off until next time Happy reading
Aleta
Well I read another chapter of corinthians, honestly I can totally excited for chapter 12 because I will finally get to the spiritual gifts!!!! I have been wanting to have a official title to my gift for the longest time!! So much has happened since the last time I wrote in my blog. My sister ( spiritual) had a wonderful conversation last night, so many things came to light about my relationship with a certain someone, ( hopefully one day I can provide his name and picture), and just God's potential purpose well one of them, for my light. I am too excited for what is to come. I am still on the hunt for job #2 but I feel I am getting closer, I just have to keep trying.
Now to chapter 11.
Well it was very interesting, the first portion dicussed the relationship between man, woman and God. God is ( or should be) the head of a man and a man is ( should be) the head of his wife. This calls for a word that has been used out of context for a long time and that is submission. I don't know about you but this is a difficult word for me, especially when you look at it from the world's perspective. Usually it is associate with low class, some for of abuse, little to know rights,it's just bad. As a believer not only do i have to submit to Christ but to my husband also... GREAT!!! Then I get really confused because Paul says all this stuff about how a in worship a woman must keep her head covered and never cut her hair because it is her pride and joy ( long hair that is). Well personally I have already broke that rule ( a few times) plus I really don't have long hair anyway. So once again I am in a place where I am confused how to apply this concept to modern day activities and principles. I understand the submission portion I have trust in my husband that he is lead by Christ, but FIRST before I come in to contact with my Husband I have to learn how to trust Christ, how can i trust the creation with out first trusting it's creator?? All this self sacrifice is rough because I am in a place where i am hoping to discover myself and in order to do that have to ignore myself? It makes since on paper but as an application it's still throws me for a loop from time to time. So the head covering for me and non head covering for men, is still fuzzy but I understand submitting. CHECK..
NEXT dinner...
the next passage talked about the Lord's supper and I think it's the portion my pastor reads before we take communion. Paul takes about waiting for others to arrive before you start eating, it's he is telling them to pray before they eat their food, maybe? Or maybe this is instructions communion, just during his time it was called the Lord's supper. He also talks about examining yourself before having the supper, I take this to mean having a clear conscious and maybe as for forgiveness before participating. Yea I was not really focused on this chapter this evening but I kind of feel the spirit telling me that this portion was just instructions for customs of that time period and I should not read too deep into it. OK
As I said before I am really excited for next chapter, I am thinking I should pray and fast and read it like ten times before I actually blog about it. I really believe that God will formally name and Identify my gifts through someone this week. The ones that I am curious about are , I have miniture visions about certain things, discernment in the form of physical sensations and emotional connections with people, and sometimes I feel as though I am understand people speaking in tongues. I would love confirmation on these especially the visions because I would like to know if that is related to prophecy, I don't know. So many things. I can't wait, the only other time I get this excited is when I go see my special someone
k signing off until next time Happy reading
Aleta
Sunday, June 12, 2011
I Corinthians chapter 10 and other stuff :)
Good afternoon all :)
I hope your day is going well. Mine is pretty good, I went to church early this morning and the message was great. It was about embracing shift in our lives. The pastor say something that really stuck with me and made me feel better about my situation, he said that Nothing can get into my life without God's permission. So all this finanical mischief i am going through God allowed it. He did not cause but he did allow it. I knew it was for a reason, he is trying to take me some place else or maybe it's training in trust, or learning how to press dispite what is going on around me. The pastor also talked about using our gifts so that we can experience the favor of God. Now this topic is always difficult for me because anytime a speaker mentions using gifts, my first thought is " well I don't know my gifts" and then I become frustrated because I feel stuck at step one because I don't know what my gifts are or how to use them. Well this happened again today, I was feeling very encouraged by the message, and then he mentioned prosperity is proportioned to the degree to which one functions in their gift. In order to function in that gift you have to know what it is and something inside of me is convinced that I don't know what mine is. But then I heard the Lord speak, and he reminded me of how well I speak but due to fear I allowed people to silence my voice. So i asked God how can I use my voice as a way to up build the kingdom and honestly to make my life better? Well I thought about it and I guess I could start by talking to people. I have always been conscious about my voice because it's loud and I speak properly. How can I embrace that and make it work for me instead of working for it or rather working for the fear of it? Others gifts or strengths I have noticed about myself include good judgment in time and the general character of some people. So how can I use these to my advantage? Well I am hoping to find out by reading Corinthians,something inside of me wants out, it's getting very restless and I have to set it free.
So chapter 10: hm.Well Paul continued with the analogy of eating the food of the non believer and honestly I am not sure what to do with that. He says it's ok to eat with them as long as they don't dedicate their food to idols. So I'm wondering what modern activity would this be compared to? It's really hard to write this because I am sleepy. (Just thought i would put that out there.) I won't think too hard about the food but one thing I did get out of this was that it seems like Paul wants our lives to be an example for both believers and non believers, so they can look to us for encouragment. I am guilty of sacrificing my spiritual standards in order to be considerate of someone's worldly standards. Paul says this is actually harmful because it causes confusion to that non believer and may change their perception of Christ. The portion regarding temptation was very helpful also, it really encourages me to stay sexually pure both emotionally and physically. It also helps to know that my temptation is no different then any other believers temptation (verse 13) I don't feel alone and I am motivated to resist especially since God has my back through the whole thing. Finally God was telling me as I was reading this, that a relationship with him takes alot of time and commitment, I will really have to try to get to know him, it won't be impossible but the theme for my season is EFFORT. I really have to work at it, and trust me it has been rough but I want this life, I want to be something in this world, not just a tumbleweed blowing across the wind in my safe zone. God told me, in order to know myself I must know him and really start being considerate of others not just of me and my problems. This is going to take lots of prayer!!!!! because I tend to be very Aleta oreniented ( even in the negative).
Ok readers I feel better now but it's nap time for real until next chapter
P.S hopefully I get some insight on this whole food and dinner thing lol.
Happy reading
Aleta
I hope your day is going well. Mine is pretty good, I went to church early this morning and the message was great. It was about embracing shift in our lives. The pastor say something that really stuck with me and made me feel better about my situation, he said that Nothing can get into my life without God's permission. So all this finanical mischief i am going through God allowed it. He did not cause but he did allow it. I knew it was for a reason, he is trying to take me some place else or maybe it's training in trust, or learning how to press dispite what is going on around me. The pastor also talked about using our gifts so that we can experience the favor of God. Now this topic is always difficult for me because anytime a speaker mentions using gifts, my first thought is " well I don't know my gifts" and then I become frustrated because I feel stuck at step one because I don't know what my gifts are or how to use them. Well this happened again today, I was feeling very encouraged by the message, and then he mentioned prosperity is proportioned to the degree to which one functions in their gift. In order to function in that gift you have to know what it is and something inside of me is convinced that I don't know what mine is. But then I heard the Lord speak, and he reminded me of how well I speak but due to fear I allowed people to silence my voice. So i asked God how can I use my voice as a way to up build the kingdom and honestly to make my life better? Well I thought about it and I guess I could start by talking to people. I have always been conscious about my voice because it's loud and I speak properly. How can I embrace that and make it work for me instead of working for it or rather working for the fear of it? Others gifts or strengths I have noticed about myself include good judgment in time and the general character of some people. So how can I use these to my advantage? Well I am hoping to find out by reading Corinthians,something inside of me wants out, it's getting very restless and I have to set it free.
So chapter 10: hm.Well Paul continued with the analogy of eating the food of the non believer and honestly I am not sure what to do with that. He says it's ok to eat with them as long as they don't dedicate their food to idols. So I'm wondering what modern activity would this be compared to? It's really hard to write this because I am sleepy. (Just thought i would put that out there.) I won't think too hard about the food but one thing I did get out of this was that it seems like Paul wants our lives to be an example for both believers and non believers, so they can look to us for encouragment. I am guilty of sacrificing my spiritual standards in order to be considerate of someone's worldly standards. Paul says this is actually harmful because it causes confusion to that non believer and may change their perception of Christ. The portion regarding temptation was very helpful also, it really encourages me to stay sexually pure both emotionally and physically. It also helps to know that my temptation is no different then any other believers temptation (verse 13) I don't feel alone and I am motivated to resist especially since God has my back through the whole thing. Finally God was telling me as I was reading this, that a relationship with him takes alot of time and commitment, I will really have to try to get to know him, it won't be impossible but the theme for my season is EFFORT. I really have to work at it, and trust me it has been rough but I want this life, I want to be something in this world, not just a tumbleweed blowing across the wind in my safe zone. God told me, in order to know myself I must know him and really start being considerate of others not just of me and my problems. This is going to take lots of prayer!!!!! because I tend to be very Aleta oreniented ( even in the negative).
Ok readers I feel better now but it's nap time for real until next chapter
P.S hopefully I get some insight on this whole food and dinner thing lol.
Happy reading
Aleta
Friday, June 10, 2011
I Corinthians Chapter 8-9 mix/commentary
Good Evening all, ( speaking future followers)
Well it has been another interesting week of neglect, negative thoughts and survival. But I am honestly understanding of that because, I have not opened my Bible in a while so my covering has been damaged to say the least. I am going through a period of self neglect. But I refuse to turn another entry into a pity party, I know what I did and now it is time to keep pressing forward. Honestly for these two chapters I'm not really sure what to write, so I am just going to read over them and let the Lord speak to me. I will say this, I am getting bored with simply summarizing the the passages, it's so school and text book like, hopefully I can come up with some ways to spice things up a bit, to keep it interesting and therefore keep up with my commitment.
*Dramatic reading pause*
Well I've read both chapters a few times, giving some passages more attention than others, and honestly I was stumped at first especially with chapter 9. But I will go in order.
So to mean the basis of chapter 8 was Paul was telling the people of the church to be mindful and respectful of other christians and their walk. Not everyone is in the same place with Christ and it is wrong for those were are more experienced in their faith to tempt those who are new in the faith especially in the area where they are weak. Paul used the example of eating food that is offered to an idol. One believer might have the understanding that just because the food is offered to the idol does not mean that food is harmful, mainly because that idol has no power. But someone who is new to the faith and grew up believing that eating food given to the idol is wrong may not grasp that concept right away. So as an experienced believer it is best to not eat the food out of respect for the new believer. I totally get it.
Now chapter 9 was not so cut and dry for me. Honestly the first portion sounded like Paul was venting about not recieving atleast some accomidation when he visits these towns to preach. He used many metaphors like a farmer eating of his/her own harvest or a milk maid drink from her pail, and I'm guessing he is referring to the fact that his message is not only meant to benefit the listeners but him as well. After that it seems like he is fighting his flesh because he always is refocusing his attention not getting anything for his service. As I think about this more I kind of like this portion because it shows his human side, and even though he was called directly by Christ, it shows he still struggles and goes through the battle flesh vs. spirit, but only the flesh doesn't have the same control it once had. It's encouraging to know that even though spiritual leaders, are who they are, they still face battles that the followers do, just on a different scale.
The scripture that stuck out to me the most was this: " You've all been to the stadium and seen athletes race. Everyone runs, one wins. Run to win. All good athletes train hard. They do it for a gold medal that tarnishes and fades. You're after one that's gold eternally. I don't know about you, but I'm running hard for the finish line. I'm giving it everything I've got. No sloppy living for me" ( Msg verses 24-26). This really inspired me to work harder and help me understand that this life does not come easy, it takes hard work and practice just like any skill or sport. Though people are born with natural gifts and abilities they must be developed in order to be used effectively and to their full potential. They can not lie dormant inside, they must be trained. It's almost like that scripture says keep going and keep trying, you can make it. What the enemy says is a lie and you do not need to believe it, he is a deceiver. Keep pressing,fighting,praying, and ( for me) start fasting. It is worth it. This is your training season, use it wisely. Your time has not been wasted. You have to learn how to function in your new body.
Thank you Lord for an example of stepping out on faith.
oh one more thing, I felt led to share with you.
I was watching Joyce Meyer this evening and she did a wonderful illustration that stuck with me. It was about when someone first gets saved,before this moment she had on a torn jacket, the man protraying Jesus came out with a white cloak. "Jesus" took Joyce's torn jacket and put on the new white cloak. This coat was clean but it didnt fit quit right. It was very long and too big. She went on to explain that is how it is when we are new to the faith. But we can allow Jesus to fit our cloak on us so that it fits just right. It's alot of work friends but in the end it will be worth the time and effort.
Until next chapter happy reading
Aleta
Well it has been another interesting week of neglect, negative thoughts and survival. But I am honestly understanding of that because, I have not opened my Bible in a while so my covering has been damaged to say the least. I am going through a period of self neglect. But I refuse to turn another entry into a pity party, I know what I did and now it is time to keep pressing forward. Honestly for these two chapters I'm not really sure what to write, so I am just going to read over them and let the Lord speak to me. I will say this, I am getting bored with simply summarizing the the passages, it's so school and text book like, hopefully I can come up with some ways to spice things up a bit, to keep it interesting and therefore keep up with my commitment.
*Dramatic reading pause*
Well I've read both chapters a few times, giving some passages more attention than others, and honestly I was stumped at first especially with chapter 9. But I will go in order.
So to mean the basis of chapter 8 was Paul was telling the people of the church to be mindful and respectful of other christians and their walk. Not everyone is in the same place with Christ and it is wrong for those were are more experienced in their faith to tempt those who are new in the faith especially in the area where they are weak. Paul used the example of eating food that is offered to an idol. One believer might have the understanding that just because the food is offered to the idol does not mean that food is harmful, mainly because that idol has no power. But someone who is new to the faith and grew up believing that eating food given to the idol is wrong may not grasp that concept right away. So as an experienced believer it is best to not eat the food out of respect for the new believer. I totally get it.
Now chapter 9 was not so cut and dry for me. Honestly the first portion sounded like Paul was venting about not recieving atleast some accomidation when he visits these towns to preach. He used many metaphors like a farmer eating of his/her own harvest or a milk maid drink from her pail, and I'm guessing he is referring to the fact that his message is not only meant to benefit the listeners but him as well. After that it seems like he is fighting his flesh because he always is refocusing his attention not getting anything for his service. As I think about this more I kind of like this portion because it shows his human side, and even though he was called directly by Christ, it shows he still struggles and goes through the battle flesh vs. spirit, but only the flesh doesn't have the same control it once had. It's encouraging to know that even though spiritual leaders, are who they are, they still face battles that the followers do, just on a different scale.
The scripture that stuck out to me the most was this: " You've all been to the stadium and seen athletes race. Everyone runs, one wins. Run to win. All good athletes train hard. They do it for a gold medal that tarnishes and fades. You're after one that's gold eternally. I don't know about you, but I'm running hard for the finish line. I'm giving it everything I've got. No sloppy living for me" ( Msg verses 24-26). This really inspired me to work harder and help me understand that this life does not come easy, it takes hard work and practice just like any skill or sport. Though people are born with natural gifts and abilities they must be developed in order to be used effectively and to their full potential. They can not lie dormant inside, they must be trained. It's almost like that scripture says keep going and keep trying, you can make it. What the enemy says is a lie and you do not need to believe it, he is a deceiver. Keep pressing,fighting,praying, and ( for me) start fasting. It is worth it. This is your training season, use it wisely. Your time has not been wasted. You have to learn how to function in your new body.
Thank you Lord for an example of stepping out on faith.
oh one more thing, I felt led to share with you.
I was watching Joyce Meyer this evening and she did a wonderful illustration that stuck with me. It was about when someone first gets saved,before this moment she had on a torn jacket, the man protraying Jesus came out with a white cloak. "Jesus" took Joyce's torn jacket and put on the new white cloak. This coat was clean but it didnt fit quit right. It was very long and too big. She went on to explain that is how it is when we are new to the faith. But we can allow Jesus to fit our cloak on us so that it fits just right. It's alot of work friends but in the end it will be worth the time and effort.
Until next chapter happy reading
Aleta
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
I have to get back in the word
Good Evening
It has been a couple days since my last decent post and i must say this process have been anything but easy. It takes real commentment and constant prayer to keep up with this because alot of days i don't feel like looking into the word so extensively and just going over it. But as i have been learning it is essential for me and my day to day walk. I have dedicated myself physically to my husband and emotionally to just growing as a person. I want to be able to help others but I first have to be able to help myself. The first thing I need to is STAY IN MY WORD. This means reading and writing everyday so that I can hear about God's plany for my life and so that I can combat negative thoughts and ideas. There are some major decisions i need to make in my life and I really need to consult Christ so I don't end up living a life I think people want me to live instead of the one I am called to live. I have to keep pressing, physically and spiritual so i can keep growing and reach my my full potential as person.
Currently I am reading a few books so i will let you all know how that goes.
my next entry should be the next chapter in Corinthians gotta keep it moving so we get to the gifts!!!!
Happy Reading
Aleta
It has been a couple days since my last decent post and i must say this process have been anything but easy. It takes real commentment and constant prayer to keep up with this because alot of days i don't feel like looking into the word so extensively and just going over it. But as i have been learning it is essential for me and my day to day walk. I have dedicated myself physically to my husband and emotionally to just growing as a person. I want to be able to help others but I first have to be able to help myself. The first thing I need to is STAY IN MY WORD. This means reading and writing everyday so that I can hear about God's plany for my life and so that I can combat negative thoughts and ideas. There are some major decisions i need to make in my life and I really need to consult Christ so I don't end up living a life I think people want me to live instead of the one I am called to live. I have to keep pressing, physically and spiritual so i can keep growing and reach my my full potential as person.
Currently I am reading a few books so i will let you all know how that goes.
my next entry should be the next chapter in Corinthians gotta keep it moving so we get to the gifts!!!!
Happy Reading
Aleta
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Just me... random :)
Good evening,
Tonight I just really wanted to talk. No chapter break down, atleast not now lol. There are two things that i am really interested in pursuing this summer but I am not sure if they are in God's plan for me.Now I am sleepy and I Have things to do before i leave in the morning ... i will be along soon
Tonight I just really wanted to talk. No chapter break down, atleast not now lol. There are two things that i am really interested in pursuing this summer but I am not sure if they are in God's plan for me.Now I am sleepy and I Have things to do before i leave in the morning ... i will be along soon
Friday, June 3, 2011
1 Corinthians Chapter 7... one week later :(
Good morning ( early morning)
Well as the title states it's been one week since my last post. During that time I have fallen, one time but it was worth like a week's worth of sin.
However on a positive I did complete my resume and that means I can hit this second job scene nice and hard!!.
Another thought that crossed my mind was, when is my life going to start? I mean right now it's really boring. I always hear speakers, pastors, and other people say God does not want us to live a limited, safe life. He wants us to try,experience, and travel to different places. He wants to have fun, but my thing is when is that going to happen for me. It seems like money is always a factor and I am limited by it. I don't want to look back over my life and realize all I ever did was make plans but never put them into action. I want to audition,I want to travel, make dozens of friends, and just I don't know live. But there is a part of me that is so drained by the process and I have no clue where to begin. I WANT TO LIVE!!!! in all of this however I feel like I am on the right track.
Ok so on to chapter 7.
Here Paul talks to the church about relationships. Thus far, it seems this is the longest letter Paul has written, it makes sense because relationships are very important and common. Here He dicusses romantic relationships.Honestly right now I am having a hard time describing this. Well to me Paul is telling the people not to rush into relationships ( especially marriage) because it is not what it's all cracked up to be. Being in a relationship does not solve problems, but it could potentially create more, if the timing is wrong and because being in a relationship takes alot of time and effort.
Another important point Paul brings up ( or atleast I thought he did) was the basis of marriage. In the commentary notes in my NLT ( new living translation) bible, it says that it is better to deal with sexual pressures of singleness than to deal with the stress of an unhappy marriage.The basis of marriage should not be mere physical attraction because that soon fades. The relationship needs substance and I believe friendship in order to stand the test of time. The two people need to be whole as individuals before coming together as a couple.
Maybe for me that is why it is important to be content in my season and really take this time to develop myself and my relationship in the Lord so he can prepare me for the role of wife and also just so i can be happy and fullfilled as a person. Honestly I know my purpose is not to follow one person ( earthly that is) everyday all day, but to have my own life and contribute to this world in hopes to save some of the people in it. This process sucks, but You nobody told me the road would easy.
A verse that stuck out to mean was " God not your marital status, defines your life".(MSG).That really sums up this portion best.
I am going to continue on to the next chapter but I will be refering back to this chapter because I have a feeling it's not done with me yet. :)
Stay tuned for chapter 8 " freedom with responsibility" until then happy reading
Aleta
Well as the title states it's been one week since my last post. During that time I have fallen, one time but it was worth like a week's worth of sin.
However on a positive I did complete my resume and that means I can hit this second job scene nice and hard!!.
Another thought that crossed my mind was, when is my life going to start? I mean right now it's really boring. I always hear speakers, pastors, and other people say God does not want us to live a limited, safe life. He wants us to try,experience, and travel to different places. He wants to have fun, but my thing is when is that going to happen for me. It seems like money is always a factor and I am limited by it. I don't want to look back over my life and realize all I ever did was make plans but never put them into action. I want to audition,I want to travel, make dozens of friends, and just I don't know live. But there is a part of me that is so drained by the process and I have no clue where to begin. I WANT TO LIVE!!!! in all of this however I feel like I am on the right track.
Ok so on to chapter 7.
Here Paul talks to the church about relationships. Thus far, it seems this is the longest letter Paul has written, it makes sense because relationships are very important and common. Here He dicusses romantic relationships.Honestly right now I am having a hard time describing this. Well to me Paul is telling the people not to rush into relationships ( especially marriage) because it is not what it's all cracked up to be. Being in a relationship does not solve problems, but it could potentially create more, if the timing is wrong and because being in a relationship takes alot of time and effort.
Another important point Paul brings up ( or atleast I thought he did) was the basis of marriage. In the commentary notes in my NLT ( new living translation) bible, it says that it is better to deal with sexual pressures of singleness than to deal with the stress of an unhappy marriage.The basis of marriage should not be mere physical attraction because that soon fades. The relationship needs substance and I believe friendship in order to stand the test of time. The two people need to be whole as individuals before coming together as a couple.
Maybe for me that is why it is important to be content in my season and really take this time to develop myself and my relationship in the Lord so he can prepare me for the role of wife and also just so i can be happy and fullfilled as a person. Honestly I know my purpose is not to follow one person ( earthly that is) everyday all day, but to have my own life and contribute to this world in hopes to save some of the people in it. This process sucks, but You nobody told me the road would easy.
A verse that stuck out to mean was " God not your marital status, defines your life".(MSG).That really sums up this portion best.
I am going to continue on to the next chapter but I will be refering back to this chapter because I have a feeling it's not done with me yet. :)
Stay tuned for chapter 8 " freedom with responsibility" until then happy reading
Aleta
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