Jazz ( Yeah man!!)

This may come as a shock to some but honestly if i had to call myself a genre of music i would be jazz. Suprising to some because jazz equates to calm and layed back, mellow, NOT ME!!! These adjectives are definatly true with a glance at the surface,but depth lies within lyrics and musical instrumentation ( is that a word? lol). You can't put jazz into a box, just when you think you have it figured out, it changes rearranges, and makes you feel something beyond you. It's makes reality more interesting and dreams seem real.Jazz desires something more and wants to escape from pain, but risks that same pain for love. It defies color barriers and stereotypes, it's not what you think it is and even when it is, jazz has a way of making you want more. The desire to be loved can come off as desperation at one moment then turn to determination with just one note or vocal " doob be doo". What can be overwhelming, aimless, and consuming to one, is healing, thriving, and intoxicating to others. This some how my friends is just one of my many sides... READY????

His Saving Grace

The last time time i wrote i can honestly say i was a different person. I was lost, hurt, confused, yet thirsty for God's love or really just love in general. For the past 19 days i have been reading and meditating on Psalm 139 and breaking down one verse a day. During this time i have learned alot about myself and alot about My Savior. I realize that i do have the ability to commit to Christ and develop our personal relationship. I never really took Christ seriously, I always thought that it was something for old people or people with troubles just never for me.I never dreamed that i would be praying on a regualar basis and telling others to pray as well. Hmmmm i still feel like this is too formal... Like i am writing a paper for school or writing simply to write to impress people. I really don't know how to fix that i guess that is what i need to work on. Just getting to know myself and i feel as though God is holding me in this place until i really face what looks at me in mirror everyday. But my question is how do you approach yourself????? I mean am i really even doing this blog thing right??? I dont understand how i can go through so many emotions in a one paragraph.... So im just going to stop. Thank you God for your victory over this frustration just over this down time. THANK YOU LORD!!!! that's all i can say now is thank you.
im out keep praying friends there's a long way for me to go

Hello

Hello blog world,

well... after months of putting this off, i have finally given in to my calling. Blogging, honestly for the longest i have been itimidated to blog, i always thought it had to be a certain way, or format, or just like all the other expert bloggers out there. But finally after prayer, and countless hours of contemplation, i realized that blogging is what it is... MINE.Well not that i the queen of all bloggers, by no stretch of the imagination am i claiming that, but i can make it a personal experience. For once in an area of my life, i am free to write what ever i feel( with in Christian reason of course.) Here i can be anything,or anyone I want. I Think i will choose to be myself, as much as i've avoided it i just need to, because if i don't i might not ever get this chance again. To actually develop myself, take this single me time and embrace it. Who knows, it could be interesting. You know as i'm sitting here, for once i feel like i am coming into my element. I am doing something that comes naturally... i am on my way to doing me as my peers love to put it.
So, like i said i have never done this before, soooooo um im not really sure how this is gonna go, i mean as far as focus. I guess since it's about me i can start there but i really will try my best to do some research and see how others do it. Never to copy but i do need some guidance. Also this is a religious area, all comments are welcome but please keep the profanity and suggestive material to a minimum (just out of respect for my Heavenly Father and myself). I will try to write as often as i can, i think a lot so that may be often but then again i am moody so at times it may not be as often. But i think honestly this will be because i am on assignment from the Lord and i have to be obedient. Oh one more thing if i write about people in my life i will use an alternate name just out of respect for them. Well that's it really, I feel so aligned with God right now, i've got that tingling feeling in my heart, this is real for sure :)